Akechi Mitsuhide

[During this Nobunaga lets Mitsuhide know it's raining boulders, and please check on Kitsuno.]

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[Manages to get the message. Rather than help with the Minotaur problem, it looks like he will be checking on his lord's girlfriend instead.]

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It was later in the day when perhaps a strange think happened to the warlord. There was a certain griffin who have found it's way to his home and scratched at the door, trying to see if anyone was home at the moment.

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For once Mitsuhide had some time off, and was just doing some research using his smartphone when he heard scratching coming from the door to his hotel room. He opened the door and surprised to see a griffin there. Not just any griffin. Leanne's griffin.

He looked to the right and then to the left, but didn't see the heron girl anywhere. He turned his attention back to the familiar.

"Where is your mistress, Leanne?" Though he really didn't expect an answer.

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Rafiel moved to sit down while waiting to see if Mitsuhide was home, in case he had to wait long. He goes to let out a series of chirps in greeting and also in answer to his question.

Even though time was more or less of the essence, he was still too proud of a creature to allow him to ride on the griffin's back. He goes to trot off down the hallways now and without looking back to see if the man was following him, heads out of the hotel towards the direction of his mistress.

Hopefully his own familiar will be understanding of the griffin's plight.

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Mitsuhide didn't need the help of his familiar to figure out that something was wrong and that the griffin came to him in order to get some help. So he quickly put on his sandals, and grabbed his sword and gun before following the griffin.

On his way out of the hotel he also summoned Sake, just in case he needed his familiar's help.

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Hearing that the man was indeed following him, the griffin goes to pick up the pace, hurrying towards the forest. One look back to make sure that he was still following the familiar, he moves at once at a brisk trotting pace into the forest.

Hopefully Mitsuhide can still keep up with the familiar just enough to keep him in view. Only slowing down once he reaches a particular tree, moving to lay down at its feet.

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Mitsuhide was pretty much jogging behind the griffin the whole way, Sake at his heels, with Chimaki catching up to them, since the little fox is usually in the forest when not with the warlord.

He finally slowed down to a stop when they reach the base of the tree. He looks up into the canopy before looking at the griffin.

"Is she up there and is she hurt?" The kitsune also gave a few yeps, repeating the question to Rafiel.

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Rafiel watches as Mitsuhide slowed down to a stop and nods his head. Yes, to both but yet... No to the second question. The griffin chirped with a few other sounds to the kitsune.

And where was Leanne? Very high up in the tree, having found what she believed to be a perfect hiding spot and hasn't moved from it. At all, not even to check on Rafiel or to feed herself. Her eyes red and swollen and her feathered, dulled from the lack of care.

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Sake looked back to Mitsuhide and spoke. "He says that she's very high up there. But I'm not sure what he means by the 'yes and no' to how she is doing."

That concerned Mitsuhide some. He know that the heron girl already had a low self-esteem, so if she were to get hurt, chances were she wouldn't seek help, thinking that she was being a bother.

He gave a sigh. "Looks like I'm going to need to do some climbing..." He looked back to the kitsune. "Stay here with Rafiel for now."

And with that, he reached up to the closest lower branch that would hold his weight and started to pull himself up. Chimaki the fox had already started climbing the tree a head of him, marking a safe path for him to follow.

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Rafiel just made himself comfortable as he has done his duty to his mistress. Weather she thinks she needs the help or not, the griffin wasn't going to let her waste away.

A small series of chirps leaves it at Mitsuhide's words, giving him some encouragement. No worries, he won't let you fall. It shouldn't be too high of a climb for someone as young as him to reach the Heron... At least the griffin hopes that is the case.

As for Leanne, she was sitting on a branch with her back against the tree, her wings droping on either side of it so he would see them before seeing her at least.

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Mitsuhide indeed saw the wings before he saw the rest of the heron princess. Of course, Chimaki reached her first and managed to hop onto the branch in front of her. The little fox gave a yep to try and get her attention.

Meanwhile, Mitsuhide pulled himself up onto a sturdy branch next to her. "Little bird?" he called to her softly. What he saw concerned him greatly. Though she didn't appear to be sick, it definitely looked like she was fading away.

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Emerald eyes blink at the sight of Chimaki, instantly recognizing the little fox. "Chi... Maki?" She goes to speak, her voice horse and a little weak sounding. If Chimaki was here then her master wasn't too far behind.

Before she could move to spread her wings, the soft calling of a nickname reaches her ears. "Mitsuhide..... What... What are you doing here?"

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Chimaki brings her front paws up onto Leanne's knees, sniffing at her.

Mitsuhide frowned a little. It was clear that the girl didn't want to be found. Well that was too bad. He found her, and after seeing the state that she was in, he wasn't going to leave her be anytime soon.

"Your familiar was scratching at my door, and I followed him here. Seems like he had a good reason to bring me here. What is the matter?"

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Such tiny paws, such a sweet gesture that Chimaki was showing to Leanne. A forced smile forms as she reaches over to pet the little fox.

Soon, Mitsuhide's scent was very close to her and she goes to try and avoid eye contact. She didn't want anyone to see her like this. When he told her how he found her, she frowned a little.

"My apologies for Rafiel disturbing you. There is nothing wrong..."

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"As I said, he had a good reason to." He looked over to Chimaki. Seems like the little fox has a talent when it comes to soothing people.

He moved as closely as he could to her on branches that could bare his weight. It was enough to allow him to reach out and pet her head, gently smoothing down her hair.

"You're a very bad lair, little one." He kept his voice soft and gentle, not wanting her to close herself in even more. "You may not be physically harmed, but there is something wrong. Perhaps an issue of the heart?" Many times times he had seen such deep sadness in others. What could have happened to get her into such a state?

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".... No... Not for this one..." She wasn't worth any attention. Especially not now.

Though there was a touch that she didn't expect and her eyes widen briefly before she felt more tears welling up within her eyes. She couldn't stop them as the petting continues.

"Not lying..." A very weak protest. "It is nothing for you to worry over this one..." He was being so soft and gentle with her... The complete opposite of how he usually is. It was weird and somewhat comforting.

"Besides... It happened long ago..."

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Grief. This was definitely grief. Something that he himself was all too familiar with. At least with himself he knew how deal with his own grief. It seemed like Leanne had yet to do that. At least not in a way where she wasn't berating herself.

He pulled a handkerchief out and lightly dabbed it at her eyes so as to wipe away the tears.

"You are worth more than you give yourself credit for." No one should ever view themselves in such a way. People were worth so much more. "And I think it is up to me to decide if you are worth worrying about or not." And he had to admit, he was fond of her and not because she was fun to tease. "As for how long ago it was... That doesn't matter. Especially if it's affecting you so right now."

Edited Date: 2021-09-04 11:17 pm (UTC)

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He hit it right on the mark. That this was grief. Grief that Leanne never got to fully face yet. She had done things that she could never forgive herself for, especially since she could never make it right.

Emerald eyes blink when she feels the handkerchief lightly wiping her tears away. This... This was something she could never deserve. She shouldn't tolerate this, shouldn't desire for someone to comfort her.

His words causes her to tear up more and shake her head. "No... I am not." She doesn't deserve to be the one chosen to live. Not when there were so much more worthy candidates. His words, why is he being so sweet and not his usual bullying self? He doesn't know and that is why he is being like this. She feels too weak to really move away from him but yet, a part of her doesn't want to move away and want to be spoiled a little in the comfort he was offering.

".... I am the last one...."

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That last bit confirmed another thing for Mitsuhide. It was grief and guilt. Survivor's guilt to be exact. He seen it many times with victims of war. It made him wonder what could have happened to her to make her feel that way.

He frowned some, and, with some maneuvering managed to get on her branch with her in his lap. He made sure not to touch her wings as he had one arm around her waist while his other went back to soothingly stroking her hair.

"You are worth it, so stop saying that you aren't." It was a gentle scold, but one she needed to hear. "Now tell me what you mean by you being the last one."

Edited Date: 2021-09-08 12:37 am (UTC)

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He hit it right on the nose. That what she is going through is both grief and Survivor's guilt.

Leanne didn't really care anymore if he was nearby or not, nor did she feel him moving to her branch and placing her on his lap. It was odd... Just how comforting his presence was. From the way he was holding her, being careful with her wings, to the soothing hair stroking.

".... No... If you knew..." Her sins, everything she has done before they were stolen from her. "Exactly what I mean... I am the last one... The last of my kind... The last Heron."

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Ah... Mitsuhide could only imagine how lonely she must had felt. He had lost his clan home, his lord, and several members of his family when he was younger, but that was nothing compared to being the last of your kind. He still had kin out there, though he would rather keep those at a distance.

"And you feel guilty about that." He stated it as a fact, as he continue to stroke her hair. "No one should ever feel guilty about their survival or wanting to live. What happened exactly?" He needed to know what happened to the other Herons to get an idea why she would feel guilty about being the lone survivor.

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It was hell, the loneliness couldn't ever be put into words and there was always a longing to reunite with lost family.

"But there were far better choices than this one to be the one to live." She shakes her head. "Humans... they took joy, a great joy in slaughter everyone.... No one was spared, not even nestlings or a mere babe."

This... This was hard. Hard to get through.

"I was just weaned off of my mother when it happened. My mother and sisters.... they all died to hide me away from the ones who were attacking."

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Mitsuhide's arm tightened around a little bit at that. No wonder she was afraid of him when they first met! It wasn't just because he was a stranger. It was because he was human. After hearing that her people were slaughtered by humans, he really couldn't blame her for having such fear. It also explained why she avoided the city and stayed in seclusion in the forest.

"So you were a child." And a small child by the sounds of it. "A child who had a family who clearly loved you if they would make such a sacrifice in order to protect and insure your survival. Think, Leanne. Their choice to save you was not made with logic but with love. Mourn their loss, but do not insult their sacrifice by tearing yourself down. I doubt that they would have wanted that for you."

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She feels his arm tightening around her. It was hard not to when he was already holding her so close. How long has she put her guard down around him? How long ago that his presence made her feel relaxed and comforted? But still... He was a human and was a part of those who destroyed her people and home.

"And I can still see it all happening, whenever I close my eyes." She just speaks softly and quietly. "... I miss them and I do want to be with them.... But..." She goes to shake her head. "Even so... I did not deserve such a sacrifice. Any of my siblings would have made a much better choice than this one."

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"Most trauma like that never fully goes away. It just becomes more bearable." He knew this for a fact not just from his own experiences, but also from what other survivors and victims have told him as well. "Talking about it does help. Especially if it's with someone you trust." He had only confined with his closest vassals. Only they knew what he went through in the past.

He went back to stroking her hair, trying to soothe her more. "Now, now. I just told you to stop insulting their sacrifice by tearing yourself down. You said you were just weaned, so I'm assuming that means you are the youngest? Then it would make sense for them to put some much effort to save you. It was to keep your life from being cut short when it barely just begun. They wanted to give you a chance to live. So live, so that their memory could also continue on living as well."

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"Never goes away..." She just goes to mumble before shaking her head at the other suggestion. "That... It is this one's burden and hers alone. I don't want or need any pity..."

The hair stroking... it really shouldn't be as soothing and comforting as it is. She was about to protest again but stopped as she couldnt will herself to fight against him. "Yes, I was the youngest out of my siblings. I do live... my life is not my own but it is for them... so they would never be forgotten..."

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"It's not pity that you will receive. Most of the time, you will receive sympathy and empathy. You will be surprised how many have also suffered a great loss as well." Then a thought came to mind and he had to quickly add in. "Do not take that as an invite to start comparing your loss to others, and that yours is small compared to others'." He knew how she would tend to bring herself down in order to make her feel unworthy of comfort.

"Are you really living, little one?" he asked. "From the looks of it, you are only existing."

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"... I do not need those as well... I have to be strong. It is mine alone..." She blinks at his words and just how quickly he goes to add in the the thought. So fast that before she could stop herself, a giggle leaves her. "But it would be true."

At his question, a small sigh leaves her. "For myself yes... For them... I am living."

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Mitsuhide shook his head some. "Comparing your experiences to those of others doesn't make sense. It's like comparing an apple to an orange. They both taste different, but that doesn't mean that one is better than the other."

He gave a small sigh. "You cannot live for them if you are not living for yourself. Shutting yourself in is doing them a disservice."

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"Even if it is comparing to such fruit, it is what I must do. It is what we Herons do, comfort others even if we may need the comfort. We must be strong for others."

She goes to sigh as well, allowing a few tears to fall from her eyes. "But I must be the perfect Heron, the perfect female."

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Mitsuhide gently reached up and caught her tears with a finger, effectively wiping them away. "I can't imagine anyone being effective at comforting others if they themselves refuse such a thing when they need it the most. Taking comfort is not a sign of weakness, little one. It's a sign of being alive."

He places a light kiss at the top of her head. "No one is asking you to be perfect. Especially not here in Avalon. In fact, I think imperfections are what makes someone beautiful. It gives them a very endearing quality."

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It felt a little surreal, to see a finger that isn't her own catching her tears and also being comforted like this. "Then you have never met a Heron before, at least none before me." A small sigh. "While it is true, Mitsuhide... This one... This one cannot be selfish and ask of such things."

The kiss on the top of her head and she couldn't help but to let more tears fall. Why was he breaking through her defenses so easily?!

"But... I have to be... I am not allowed... Their deaths. Why am I the only one?"

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"You are not being selfish if there is one here who is willing to give comfort to you without being asked." Though he wasn't sure what to think about the Heron culture if it caused Leanne to tear herself down so much. It reminded him of some of the Buddist sects that were again Nobunaga.

"I cannot answer to why you are the only one. I just know that they saved you simply because they loved you. For them, you need to learn to love yourself as well."

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She shouldn't accept this comfort. She doesn't deserve such comforts. "But... It is still...." She was losing the willpower to keep the argument up. Numb, her whole being feels numb due to letting nearly everything out. Heron culture was the best culture, she is just trying to overdo it due to guilt.

"But... I don't deserve such a sacrifice or great act of love...."

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I can't tell how much conflict between you and Tayrey is real or banter, and that's fine.

Although she may seem naive, she's more scarred by the past than you'd think, and not so innocent I worry about her.

And although she sets aside candy for me, it was in a place where it was plentiful and we regularly died and came back from the dead. So the usual long term problems couldn't truly exist. I know this is just a testing point, and I'm grateful with you choosing candy, and not something serious. [CANDY IS SERIOUS! No, not really.] For what it's worth, I think she would be this argumentative with others not me, it's an intense sticking point with her core value system, and it's been through a lot of stress, so she needs to see how well it's still in tact.

She still wrote it into my contract with her that I cannot risk my life to do things I wouldn't order her to do as well. Originally there was a game with a werecougar -- a human that can change into a mountain lion, a giant foreign cat, and a loss meant death. Normally I would have played it until I both won and lost, I was testing the limits of death and whether it was using wormholes or spare bodies, but she was upset enough that I accepted the one loss and didn't keep playing.

It's for her sake that even knowing I'd probably come back in a few hours like everyone else, I didn't risk it, just in case.

She was with me when no one else was. When Klaus walked away so I couldn't cut him out of my life first, Tayrey stayed and did what I asked at great personal cost.

I mention this, because I doubt she will, and you deserve to know. Just because you weren't there, doesn't mean you weren't with me always.

By all means, don't go easy on her, she doesn't need it, she's stronger than she thinks. But as much as I think she'd get along with Hideyoshi, she worried before that you and her would never be able to see each other's hearts.

[And just because he's a DICK -- he holds up a forkful of cake!] Kanpai.

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[Nobunaga is going to see the rare sight of an irratable Mitsuhide]

"Naive" may be putting it lightly when it comes to that girl, my lord.

The issue that I'm having with her is that she is expecting others to know and respect her values and world culture right away, but is showing little or no regard for others' values and cultures. She is starting to sound no better than the more disagreeable Nanban who only views Japan as a place to conquer and not a country worth looking at as an equal.

You need not worry about me going easy on her.

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No, I don't suppose you would.

[Leans on a fist.] So much for you two getting along.

She's not a conqueror. Not of anywhere. Her sector already has established peace. At the price that culture conflict has never been a thing until she was on the ship. And even there, she had me. So she didnt have to push herself as much, she could always come to me even about Klaus, no matter how much I told her not to trust me. She's thoroughly unaware of how she can come across, it's beyond any experience she's ever had. She's always had a senior officer to take control of any tense discussions with someone else, or just shoot them. And she values herself enough that she won't accept anyone else devaluing her time or worth. [Like Nobunaga himself.]

But never mind that, I'll handle her separately and keep the amount you two have to interact at a minimum, though it is a shame. You both could learn much from each other that I can't truly convey.

Are you.... hurting, here?

What I mean to say is...

[A hand through his hair.] I was hurting all the time, but I didn't know it. Couldn't see it until Klaus took some of the pain away.

Skip the word pain, you and I both know we can go through anything without flinching.

Is the damage of arriving in a new world, with hundreds of new people, new cultures, new rules, the uncertainty of it all, noticeable? Do you feel like you're going completely mad, and would you like something reassuring and familiar so that the madness has a little bit of a buffer first?

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"Hurting" my lord? [He has to laugh at that.]

Since when have I ever failed to adapt quickly to an unusual situation? [Or to admit to any mental/emotional distress for that matter.]

You need not worry about me. Though this reality is indeed unusual, it's nothing I can't handle on my own.

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Good! [Then it can't be too severe, at minimum. Tayrey being Tayrey aside, Mitsuhide does usually land on his feet soon after Nobuanga.]

It does seem much easier here than on the ship. But I have learned much there and [A small laugh!] if I'm to try something so foreign to my instincts, I'd rather try it with you first.

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You honor me, my lord.

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